For some reason, I’ve never been big on New Years Resolutions. I have never understood why anyone waits around for New Years to set resolutions. I’m constantly self reflecting and if there’s something I want to work on, I usually just start working on it. I also think I’ve watched many people, including myself here or there, identify a resolution and by the end of January it’s already been forgotten. But instead of throwing the whole “New Years Resolution” idea out of the window this year, I decided to take a different approach. I’ve been taking stock of where I am and what I need to do to really create the person I think I want to become. As a result, I came up with this list of “resolutions.” Basically, these are principles I would like to live by and incorporate into my daily life. They aren’t anything new to me; many of them have been on my radar since at least 2013. I have been working on them in one way or another and in each area I can honestly say I have already grown. I’m just not where I’d like to be. So, by default I guess, they have become my 2015 New Years Resolutions.
Embracing What Makes Me Happy and Living It
I live a very, very happy life. I absolutely have more than what I need and I consider my relationships with my family and friends my greatest asset, but I sometimes end up in a place where I question if I am doing something for me or someone else. I’m confident my belief that it is important to compromise and give to the people we love only adds to this already gray area. Anther challenge here, outside of the obvious things like Seano, N, and my family and friends, I struggle to identify my passions. I know there are many things I enjoy, but are these true passions and do they truly make me happy? I’m not sure where I stand on that yet. I’m well aware that until I can identify what these passions are, I certainly can’t live them.
In 2015, I hope to discover some of my passions; to brave new challenges and adventures regardless of the risk involved; and to embrace them fully and openly.
As I get older, I’m getting much better at this. I’m not sure if it’s because I’m reminded more and more how many things are out of my control, if it’s Seano’s laid-back influence on me, or if it is because I get more and more exhausted trying to plan and control so many things. Whatever it is, I’m willing to give myself a pat on the back for this one. I can easily put off tasks that need to get done at the house to play with N and I work to live not live to work. While I understand certain things go better when planned, I hope to leave moments for spontaneity and for things to just happen. One thing I have realized is some of my favorite moments happen on the days when we are just winging it.
In 2015, I hope to plan less, focus more on the moment I’m in, be more available to those I love, and interact deeply with my family and friends.
Faith has become increasingly important to me over the years. Having faith in something greater and trusting that things will happen as they should has become a comfort to me. I have also realized faith has a significant impact on living a life that I’m proud of, like being a kind, honest, and loyal person. Please don’t mistake this as an effort to tell you what your faith should be; this is just a reminder to myself that this part of me deserves more than what I have been giving it.
In 2015, I hope to stay more constantly connected to my faith, trust in what is unfolding, and create a deeper faith for our family.
Writing Off the Little Things
I finally accept that there will always be people in my life that bring drama, gossip, and pettiness. What I have to do is not let it negatively affect me, not buy in and participate, and write it off without a second thought. Being around these people is difficult for me because I’m a person that loves and hurts so openly. Many times this negativity ins’t even intentional but it can still affect me deeply. Quick words can stay with me much longer than it took the person to say them and I often feel uneasy until minor conflicts have been resolved. I understand that this is an issue that is mine and cannot be blamed or pushed on anyone else. I have learned that I am only in control of my own feelings and actions and that by letting these things bother me, I am the one choosing negativity. Now that I have this understanding, I just need to learn to not give any energy to this negativity.
In 2015, I hope to ignore negativity more, be understanding that I may be misunderstanding communications and interactions, and find ways to minimize and silence any negativity I experience.
I have the most beautiful life. A life I have been working towards for years and that should fully fulfill me. Yet shamefully, there are days where I still want more out of myself, my career, my husband, my home, my son, or whatever the topic might be at the time. I have mentioned several times on this blog, I consider myself a perfectionist and an overachiever. I sometimes think these qualities get in my way of being thankful and content. It’s like this mindset, of needing perfection, never fully allows me to appreciate what is because I’m constantly reaching for more.
In 2015, I want to be more aware of all of the blessings in front of me, to openly and regularly show my thanks for them, and to share what I have with others in appreciation of this beautiful life.
Woo! It’s going to be a busy 2015! These are some lofty resolutions, aren’t they? I feel like I have been working really hard on these things recently. It’s like I’m on the cusp but can’t quite say I’ve mastered living by any of them. Here’s to a beautiful, happy, and successful 2015! Cheers to all (and be safe)!
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